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I found out yesterday in the hospital

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that I'm having my sixth miscarriage,

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and I was denied a medical abortion.

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And I want to talk about it

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because I've never seen anybody share a story like this online.

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On Saturday, I got my HCG results back from Friday,

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and I Learned that my HCG had not doubled in an entire week,

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which is a really concerning sign.

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I'm having some pain on my right side.

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I'm concerned this could be an ectopic pregnancy.

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I went to the hospital. I immediately did blood work

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and found out that my HCG had actually dropped by 50 in three days.

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They then took me back for an ultrasound.

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The ultrasound tech looked at me dead in the eyes,

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and she said, I'm not supposed to tell you,

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but if it were me, I would want somebody to tell me.

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And she said, you're supposed to be six weeks and three days today,

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but you have an empty sack measuring five weeks and three days.

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There is no fetus, no fetal pole,

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no yolk sac. It looks like a blighted ovum to me.

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Your pain is coming from a hemorrhage that is next to the sack.

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I knew that there was no chance I was a week behind.

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It is scientifically impossible for me to be a week behind

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because I had a lab draw at 11 DPO and that HCG came back at eleven.

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If I was a week behind, then my HCG On 4 DPO would have been 11,

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and I would have gotten at home positive pregnancy test at 3 DPO,

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which is scientifically proven to be impossible.

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So I go back to the room, and the doctor comes in,

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and he said, okay,

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well, you're good to go.

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Like, you don't have an ectopic pregnancy.

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You'll just need a repeat scan in a week,

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follow up with your OB. I said,

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excuse me? Like,

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I need to repeat scan in a week.

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I said, this is not a viable pregnancy.

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We know this is not a viable pregnancy.

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And he goes, yeah,

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it looks like it's not a viable pregnancy.

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Your HCG is dropping. It's impossible for you to be a week behind,

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and there's an empty sac. And at five weeks and four days,

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if it was a viable pregnancy,

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we'd at least be seeing, like,

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a yolk sac and fetal pole.

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So I agree, not viable.

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Right. So, okay, great.

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You agree it's not viable.

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I'd like. I don't want to see my empty sack in a week.

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Can we do a DNC may appeal,

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something to help me pass it?

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I'm going on vacation next week.

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I do not want the trauma.

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Having a miscarriage while I'm on vacation with my family.

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Didn't even say, I'm sorry.

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He said, no.

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Unfortunately,

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the law says in South Carolina that we have to go by the ultrasound,

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and the ultrasound recommendation is a follow up in a week.

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I also Have to have counseling.

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I've been waiting to post this video until I got a second opinion

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and confirmation for the second opinion.

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And I just got a call from a different OB's office

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saying that I would need two more weekly scans

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before I can have the DNC

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or the pill. Which feels really,

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really cruel because everybody knows this is not a viable pregnancy.

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And I just have to feel pregnant for two to three more weeks

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until I can have medical intervention

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because my body is not getting the hint to pass the pregnancy.

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It just feels so wrong.